interesting experience

I was setting up the abseil tower last week and everything seem to go as normal... So as usual, once I finished setting up the 2 lanes, I abseiled myself down. But what was interesting is I suddenly felt fearful! Usually when I conduct programs, it always seem to be an easy peasy thing for me to abseil down, but I don't know why, that day, while I was on my way down, I found myself thinking, "what if the rope give way?", "what if the anchor comes off?", and many other "what ifs". Thinking that maybe it's due to my "too long never abseil liao" syndrome, I went for a second round! But the same fear resided in me...

As I look back at the incident, I am reminded how finite and limited I am as a person. Remembering what Michael taught during church service last Sunday in Psalms 39,

⁴ "Show me, O LORD, my life's end
and the number of my days;
let me know how fleeting is my life.

⁵ You have made my days a mere handbreadth;
the span of my years is as nothing before you.
Each man's life is but a breath.
Selah

⁶ Man is a mere phantom as he goes to and fro:
He bustles about, but only in vain;
he heaps up wealth, not knowing who will get it.

⁷ "But now, Lord, what do I look for?
My hope is in you.

By myself as a person, I am really nothing. Only when I see and live my life in reference to God then can I find true significance, worth and security with this life I have. Thank God for this privillage to have come to know Him!