I bought my grandma out to eat yesterday and I must say that it is quite a feat to do it by myself. At many points I felt my patience running think and begin thinking to myself, "Why am I doing this?". First of all, walking to the restaurant alone is a challenge in itself. Given the condition of my grandma, it took us 30min before we reach the place which I would usually only take 7min. Then upon reaching the place, she started complaining and say "Why come here? Waste money.". Within me I was like, "Hello, I bring you out to eat, just eat can?". What's the saddest part for me is throughout the whole journey to and fro and the meal, I tried to strike conversations with her but somehow it just couldn't connect. I either get a blank look or a disconnected reply. Apparently the only thing that gets her talking is when she complains about my sister and my father.
As I reflected upon the whole encounter, my first reaction is to give up and not bring her out too often next time. But God timely sent 2 reminders, through a sister and a brother, to tell me to not give up but press on because this is something necessary. I guess what my grandma wants is just to spend time with her, physically. So though I may not be able to strike a conversation this time round, I can always try again the next time. I can't expect a ONE time immediate effect to take place with my ONE time effort. And though it may feel a little irritating and frustrating at times, if I don't keep showing concern for her, I may not have the opportunity to do so next time. I guess these are good enough reasons for me to bring her out more often the next time. :)
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